Total Darkness

Lied on a bed.  Room was pitched dark.  Could faintly hear the sound of machinary outside of the bedroom wall. 

I extended my fingers in front of my face, close to my eyes.  There is a reason that it's called pitched dark.  Total darkness.  Not a tiny bit of ray.  There's no way I could see my own fingers only inches in front of my face.  

Light is important to the world and to the human. 

Confused.  Do I now open my eyes or close my eyes.  Both ways I felt like a curtain was closed on my eyes. 

Anxiety and fear of not knowing your surrounding normally happen when darkness falls.  On this very bed, at the very moment, I felt calmness.  Be one with the nature, do not resist for a moment, do not struggle.  Breathe as normal as you can.  Relax. 

There are many things that are out of our control.  We feel helpless in most of the moments.  Hence, we fall.  We suffer. 

Take thing as it is, knows its path and we shall succeed.  Open our mind to great possibilities.  Hence, to happiness. 

And I better stop here.  I don't know how to continue this bullshit anymore.  Wuahahahaha.

But think again what I said here.  Something to ponder beyond boundaries. 

Long Awaited Coming Home

Some of you may have known, some of you don't.  I recently resigned from my current position.  I have accepted an offer from my previous company.  The best benefit that comes with this new position is that I'll be based in Miri.  Ahhh, a thought of it feels like a sprinkles in a drought land.  It's refreshing and I'm loving every bit of it.  After so many years of wondering, I'm finally coming to my beloved land I called motherland, Sarawak.

The thoughts of coming back to Miri, be close to family and friends overweight the idea of office 8 to 5 routine.  I don't know how I can cop with the routine after been 2 years away from it, and I'm so used, in fact, love offshore lifestyle, but I'm sure I will be able to rise to the occasion one more time.  

After all, being able to balik kampung makes every other challenges more worth while. 

I'm really looking forward to this new life ahead.  Wish me luck. 

The End of an 'Era'

With Gyrodata, I set foot on countries that I wanted to go for so long... I had the chance to step on the southern hemisphere country for the first time in my life, Australia, and I fell in love with Perth immediately, take away the flies issue during summer.  I visited 2 communists countries back to back, Vietnam and China.  The visit opened up my eyes and my mind to another part of the world which are totally different from Malaysia and countries I visited before.  Regardless of the histories, I come to a conclusion, Malaysia, you're losing out.  Politicians, wake up otherwise you will lag behind even more.  All other countries are moving forward but Malaysia is either stagnant or moving backward.  Either way it's not good news for Malaysian. 

Of all the offshore rigs and countries I worked on, I left my foot prints.  I enjoyed my time there.  I made many friends and still keeping in touch with them.  Technologies nowadays have definitely make the world a smaller place.  

I have always been enjoying the travelling part of my job.  Adventurous.  Honestly, I think I still have at least 3 years in me for this type of life i.e. travel, hotel, chopper, working at odd hours, laugh, swear, be so close to the nature i.e. the ocean, the sky, the cloud, the rain, the sun.  I'm just a bit sad that I could do what I always wanted to do for such a short period of time.  It comes to end an so fast.  I'll miss that part of my life so much.  I'm sure when I look back in the future, this will be the very precious moments of my life.  

Basically, I achieved my target I set when I joined offshore.  I want to shape and improve my personality, travel to many countries, make many friends in Malaysia and around the world, built network around the world and in Malaysia.  

And of course, my bunch of active, energetic and friendly colleagues are the most precious lot that make this journey so enjoyable and fun.

I'll forever miss them.  Wish them luck.  And wish myself luck for the new old task.  I will also make sure I go travelling more often and enjoy life more than ever.  

My same old saying, life is short, live life to the fullest.  I am more inspired and clearer of what it means now than ever.  

Traveller

I was a little nervous, anxious and excited.  I was on my first official trip to work in China.  It was 17 June 2011.  Checked in at the airport, no problem.  I wished my luggage would arrive on the same plane with me.  Hope no surprises like in Australia.  Cleared custom no problem.  A big relief.  Not that I have committed crime or something, it's only the anxious feeling.  I'm sure everyone who read this article understand because everyone experiences this anxiety.  Hahaha.  

I'm just happy to be onboard MH...  Sorry cannot remember the flight number, it was too long ago.  Furthermore, that part of memory is gone together with my laptop.  Didn't manage to get an isle seat so was hoping the 2 persons who sit next to me wouldn't be giants that would squash and suffocate me when they take their seats.  

Luckily, both of them were of normal size.  One is Chinese from China, another one is a Caucasian.  Started to chat with this Mat Salleh about one hour before arriving.  He's a young chap.  Apparently, he has been travelling in Australia for a year now.  Now he's starting his adventure trip in Asia.  China is his first preferred country.  He's a descendant of Italian, a citizen of Germany, speak a little like Aussie due to his long stay there.  At that moment I wished I could turn back time and did what he's doing, adventure and travel the world.  I wonder who sets the rule that after graduation we have to work?  We could work and earn money while travelling.  But then again, I guess Chinese teaching is a little bit different, we have to take care of parents and family.  To ignore them completely is just something that we Chinese cannot do.  It's just not us.  

On the other hand, living in 21st century, we should be more revolutionary. We should allow ourselves one or two years of our own time, do something for ourselves before all the commitment we will later have in our lives.  At this moment in time, I really believe that taking few years off for ourselves will really do me good in long run.  The reason being that if I have done it, I won't feel regret of not fulfilling what I always wanted to do.  Back in my mind, I still hear the whisper of should have done this and that.  After all, we only live once.  Shouldn't be afraid of this and that.  Just do it baby.  

I'm still young.  I believe that there is still time to do some adventurous trips in the future.  There is no need to feel regret so soon in life.  

There was an attractive stewardess that served us on that flight.  This young German guy was affectionate of her.  I said to him, why not ask her out tonight.  He said, he will ask her.  When I was queuing for custom clearance, I saw him walking out alone.  Didn't have a chance to ask him of his luck but I'm sure if he succeeded, his China trip will start with blast.  If he didn't succeed this time, he will have many chances to do it in the future.  

I wonder how he's doing right now.  Once in a while, I look up in the sky, remembering all the people that I have met, I wish them best of luck.

Laptop Lost Mysteriously

It's been a long time since I last updated my blog.  It's been a while loh... I was in Tianjin, China closed to 5 weeks.  You know in China, many websites are blocked, blogspot is one of them.  I actually wrote one article while I was there, waiting to come back to Malaysia to upload it. 

On 23 July 2011, while I was at the departure hall at LCCT waiting for my flight back to Kuching for one week vacation, I took out my laptop to surf internet.  That's what modern people do, surf internet.  When finished, I remembered I put the laptop inside my laptop bag.  I didn't leave the bag out of sight for one second at the departure hall.  

Inside the aircraft, I put my camera bag and laptop bag on the overhead compartment, as usual.  I fell asleep, as I have done this many many times already.  Arrived in Kuching, arrived home, I didn't take out my laptop as I didn't not need to use it.  Never thought that when I opened my bag, I nearly got a heart attack.  

Next morning when I opened my laptop bag, my heart sank.  My beloved laptop, with all my personal documents, which I haven't copied them into my external hard disk, has disappeared.  It was not in the laptop compartment of the laptop bag.  Goodness.  

Nervous, I called LCCT.  No laptop at lost and found.  I never expected to find it there, but just need to make sure.  LCCT lady suggested to report to LCCT police.  I called, LCCT police suggested to go to the nearest police station to report.  I missed my Big Sister.  I wished my big sister is around.  Not that she's police women, but when she's around, I feel that no matter what happened, I am safe.  This is what she's to me, such a big figure in my life.

Reported to police, called office.  As long as I did my part.  CYA as quoted in the modern term.  

That's how I lost my laptop.  To date I'm still blur with the idea that I actually lost it between LCCT and Kuching house.  It's an X-file case.  

Now I have to re-create all my house loan spreadsheets, my account spreadsheet, my blog article etc all over again.  The thought of it drains out my energy.  However, believe this, new and improved version of things will be created once the old ones are gone.  I look forward to improve things I have done.