Last Sunday while having food in a temple in Kuching with family, a little girl, about 10 years old came over to me with a cake in hand and said to me, "uncle, would you like to have some cake?"... hahaha... wow man, a part of me was a proud human being, that I've actually qualified to be in 'uncle' grade in the eyes of the world (excluding how my nieces and nephews called me lah)... on the other hand, hoh, maybe I should go get a plastic surgery or botox or something like that? hahahaha...
Well, in actual fact, when I was younger, hmmm I think when I was about 20 - 23 years old, there was a big worried I was experiencing. Then, I felt like I didn't grow up fast enough, mentally. I was childish, playful and didn't really care about what happened around me, let alone the world. I was blunt, straight forward in my speech, single-minded etc... those were my 'bad points'. I knew it, and I was working hard to a more mentally matured self, at least as matured as my age in my own standards and expectations. I remember I told a friend of mine, that I'm just worried if one day, somebody calls me uncle, and I think I didn't deserve it.
This day has come. It's an important day of my life. This is the day that I've been waiting for long time, a day that I can use to measure my real self comparing to the 'imagination self' i.e. expectation of myself from me myself.
The verdict is - I'm proud to be myself at this moment of time. Mental maturity, tick. Physical appearance, tick (no tummy just yet and still have my thick hair). Look, tick (of course lah, have to comfort myself mah). I wasn't feel intimidated or guilty of being called 'UNCLE'. I'm really happy about it and I actually feel that I'm in the best shape ever at the moment to face the future challenges in life. At the moment, I'm clearer with my own direction in life, have a clearer picture of what I want and what I want to achieve in life, what I need to learn more to be a better person, things to do in life to achieve more happiness, how to balance my life properly (finally - I had been searching for this answer for longest period of time), accept own and others' short-coming, have an inner peace with myself etc.
There's also one important 'achievement'... I finally feel like I'm ready for relationship and family of my own... so the task now is to find a right Mrs. Liew huh... BIG AND CHALLENGING TASK huh as I'm now already being upgraded to 'uncle'... hahahaha... ;-)
