Time Travelling

Today I watched movie 'The Time Traveller's Wife'. The story is unique, interesting but a little confusing. I still don't understand why the main character travelled through time. Somehow it just happened. haha...

There are two scenes that I was very touched though. One is when the wife was giving birth to the daughter, scene when she's in the hospital 'pushing' the baby out of her worm (errr, is this correct term???)... she finally became a mum after so many tries (apparently the fetus inherited the father's gene, could travel through time so the mother miscarriaged so many times)... It was a happy moment when she finally became a mother... that reminded me of all mothers in this world especially my mum... the pain they've gone through... SALUTE and RESPECT...

Second scene was when he travelled to the future, 4 years after his tragic death... The wife still left clothes in the wood for him everyday, even after he died (he would travel without a thread on him when he time-travelled)... The wife said, 'you'll never know' (when he would appear)... and the wife was running with lightning speed when she knew that he finally returned, or should I say, came to the future (quite confusing leh hahaha)... well, that's love... love that lasts endlessly with time... they loved each other unconditionally... well, could two persons really love each other that much?

Ironically I watched a movie this morning that I downloaded. The name of the movie is Cage, it's a French movie (I think it's French)... at the beginning of this movie the couple loved each other sooooo much... the lady told the guy that she couldn't remember a day that she didn't love him... Unfortunately an accident caused the lady the ability to speak... they've tried so many things to try to cure the lady to speak again as she has the phobia and lost in confident in herself after the accident... After one year, the guy told the lady that he couldn't go on with that anymore... he doesn't love the lady anymore... he was in love with the lady before the accident, not the lady who lost her confidence and with the disability after the accident. In this movie, the forever love lasted only one year... and the so-called forever love is conditioned... It all changed after condition changed...

So I guess, anything could happen in life... one way or another... two extreme stories in one day... well, all the best to everyone... whatever happens, just remember, everything happens for the best reason... we live only once... those who believe in reincarnation, well, we wouldn't remember what happened in our past lives... so enjoy this life... live life to the fullest... we wouldn't be able to travel through time and see people from the past or hold on to people we love forever... appreciate people around us... don't let go any hope that we have even in the toughest time in our lives :-D

Fear Of Being Close To Someone

Was chatting with a friend earlier, this came in our conversation. I was 'listening' (in fact reading text) but didn't say much... We have to listen to others especially friends. However, this inspires me to write... hehehe...

Sounds familiar? I guess this happens to many of us at one stage of our life. We have family members (parents, siblings, relatives etc), good friends, close friends, closest friends, best friends, God brothers, God sisters etc. Somehow, where are they now? What are they doing now? What on earth did happen that we all lost contact with almost everyone?

When we were younger, we lacked the maturity and wisdom to maintain a relationship. When we're close to someone, we tend to have high expectation of him / her. We expect he/she understands us like how well we understand ourselves (Now think, do we ourselves understand ourselves that much?). We expect other party would understand even if we frown. Some people would give everything to the relationship and holds nothing back. Some would become obsess with others especially in boyfriend-girlfriend relationship.

Unfortunately, we all know now that it doesn't work that way. As our expectations got higher, we would be hurt more easily. For example, I'm a very punctual person, why on earth you didn't call me earlier to tell me that you would be late by half an hour? When this happened one time, OK, can be forgiven. Second time, well, be patient. Third time, would be one time too many. Bomb, exploded. Worst would be the end of the relationship / friendship. One would say, I give you so much, but this is what I get from you? This is a very simple example only. I'm sure anyone could come up with better example than this.

I still remember I had a Korean friend I met in UK. He once told me that he got into fights with his best friends because they didn't give him a farewell party / gathering before he left for UK for his study. After that incident the friendship turned sour. He didn't care much about them anymore even though his friends were still treating him like before. He really expected too much from his friends. Later he admitted that his friends were planning something for him, just that he expected them to do something earlier. That was the reason he was still angry with them. Goodness me, even for me at the age of 24 then.

Does it sound fair? In my humble opinion, this is very wrong. Everyone is an unique individual. Everyone has his/her thoughts. Everyone has his/her own privacy. Everyone has his/her own priority. Everyone has his/her limitations. This is because we're human. Human is not perfect. We all are not perfect. And the basic of relationship / friendship is that we have to respect each other. We need to know everyone is an unique individual and we need to respect his/her thoughts, privacy, priority and limitations. We cannot expect too much from others. That include our parents and siblings, the closest people to us in this world. They too have their life to live. We live, we face challenges in life, we solve them ourselves by getting helps from others. At the end, we have to solve challenges / problems ourselves. We can't expect others to do it for us because it's simply cannot be done.

Some would say, well, I give everything I have for this relationship / friendship. Think again, everybody needs a private space for themselves. There is limitation and 'boundaries'. Giving too much is not healthy as we need to let other people to give too. Give and take makes 'Ying Yang' balance. Hence, healthy relationship / friendship. hahaha...

The best thing to maintain a relationship / friendship is communication and respect each other. Communicate well with others, don't just assume. Assume is a form of expectation. When everybody is clear and in the same page, things will turn out to be good and fun and satisfying and enjoyable. Always remember to respect other's opinion and choices. Everyone does something for a good reason. And always remember things happens for the best reason. With the mindset, perhaps feeling hurt when our close friends did not meet our expectation could be reduced to minimum.

Life is short. Take it easy. There is no need for us to be hurt because of this. If we're stil hurt because of this, that means we still haven't matured enough to forgive and forget. Open up our heart to accept the fact that nobody will ever fulfill our expectations. Open up our mind to accept that we're all imperfect creature in this world. Accept the fact that we're all imperfect is the perfect way to be happy and harmony with the world.

Being close to someone is a blessing. How many of us could say that we have many close friends? Some are not even in good relationship with parents and siblings, just look at the Americans :-p... I do hope in the future don't be scared of being close to someone.

This is just my thought. I'm sure there're plenty of people who don't agree with me. Well, doesn't matter. This is only my humble thought ;-)

Civilization

Wind speed of 50 knot and heavy rains in the middle of the ocean, bye bye, see you later... When the chopper took off at 10.20am today, I know I'm gonna miss all those crazy things that happened there... how could I not? I feel so very close to the nature out there than in the concrete jungle, of course...

When chopper landed at Kerteh airport, I surprised even myself... I didn't have any excitement or feeling extra happy for being back on mainland... I wonder why... well, perhaps I have always been the nature loving person... I love the sea, I love wind (movement of the air), I love rain, and I guess most importantly, life is so much less stressful out there than in town... I had such a clear and calm mind...

So civilization? what is it about to be precise? is it called civilization because of all the fancy technology that we have in this modern days? Or we human have lost the natural instinct and become too dependable to all the modern gadgets? Some places in this world people / politicians misuse these gadgets hence created chaos / wars for their own benefits / hobbies or whatever reasons... Have human beings actually been advancing in the right direction?

Whenever I'm back home in Sarawak, I see the tribal natives who still live in the remote villages and maintain their way of living since, god knows how long ago. I thought to myself: to them, is civilization important? without any knowledge of what's happening outside of their world, they do live happily and enjoying life perhaps much more than anyone of us... Not only in my hometown, this happens to those less developed areas in countries like Cambodia, Thailand, China and I noticed that this also applies in the US as well when I spent 6 months there for my work training...

Well, civilization, is it really important? hmmm, hard to say... all depends on our own perception of life I guess... hahahaha...

New Path

Was reading newspaper when the bright golden sunshine caught my attention from the right side of my vision... I looked up... WOW!!!!!! The entire skyline was in golden colour... It was the most splended sunset I ever seen...

I was on my way to KL from Labuan on 17 July 09. Flight departed at around 5.20pm... It was about 7pm and I was at about 13K ft above ground when I saw this breathtaking sunset...

The above 'set' was written on 17 July 09... It is 23 Nov 09 now... I couldn't finish the above article at that time, because I didn't know how to continue... also I guess I was tired from the travelling that I fell asleep half way writing that piece... hahaha... what an excuse...

the truth is that, I 've changed my so-called career path since July. I've started something totally new to me, and it's a new challenge I have to face (sounds like fear factor). I was a little anxious, little worried and at the same time excited to see what the future holds for me... taking up this new job partly because I've set my targets I want to achieve in life (this job at least give me the free time I always long for), I know my shortcoming in my character and personality hence I want to improve myself to be a better person, I want to live the life I once dreamed of because I dont want to have regrets later when I get older (I know I should have gotten this type of job like 10 years ago hahaha)... also, I would say it's time for me to move on from cementing with the same company which I dont see myself having a promising future anyway... I got this good opportunity, I grapped it... I wish for the very best in my own future and I'll make things work to show that I've made a right choice... hahaha...

Satisfaction

The feeling of satisfaction means that we're happy with the results of work done or the outcome of the thing we do fall within the expectation. That's what I'm feeling right now. After hard work under extreme (for me) conditions for few days, we finally completed what we're set to do on this rig without much complications. It's such a good feeling to know that the client appreciates what we did. Proudly to say I have gained my confidence that I lost a little while ago. I hope I can remember the feeling right now and will carry this momentum with me for the rest of my life. Life is too short lah and we should go forward and face the challenges in life without fear and like my colleague said, dont think too much... I guess what he really wanted to say is do what we're supposed and set out to do, dont get deviated from the goal... I guess life is sometimes as simple as that huh...

Blogging

Read articles from a friend this evening... she's been writing a lot of articles, and I normally would read her blog titles sent to me in my email but didn't have much time to read them...

she's been writing a lot since she became mother to her almost one year old daughter (I hope I'm right with the age hahaha)... she's been writing about the growth of her daughter, her experience as a mum, breast feeding, the determination of being a breast feeding mum (I dont know what she's talking about though) etc etc... her writing skill has improved tremendously since the last time I read her articles and I'm impressed... suddenly I'm also motivated to write more hahaha... I have lots of things to write, and hopefully I can keep this blog updated more often than before... hahaha...

Signing out now... hope will find the ommphhh to keep fingers moving tomorrow... hahaha...

Monsoon Season

It's been a while since I last wrote here. Always have lots of ideas, the only challenge is to put them into words... there are few articles which I didn't finish writting them hahaha...

anyway, I'm now onboard Ensco 106, offshore Terengganu / Kelantan, if i'm not mistaken, I'm very near to Thailand water now... the weather has not been friendly to us since I came onboard... heavy rain, strong wind... well, it's year end, and people called it Monsoon Season... the highest wind speed recorded this morning was 83 knot, which is just little less than 95 m/hr. About an hour ago, it was announced that the wind speed was 63 knot, which is about 72 m/hr. Sounds scary heh...

I'm quite excited about this bad weather actually... first of all, this is my first time experiencing this kind of strong wind...

secondly, I really like to see the big waves gently dancing below my feet...

thirdly, I like to see rain drops dropping horizontally instead of what we see in town with gravity effect, vertically...

forthly, it feels nice, cozy and SAFE to be staying inside this firm and strong accommodation here with the sense of feeling lucky that I dont need to be working outside and not exposed to this kind of rough condition all the time...

fifth, internet connection and phone services are still working fine, we're still connected to civilization, hahaha...

sixth, this quiet period gives me time to 'defrag' my brains... there are so much happening the past few months, and I dont really have the luxury to absorb what had happened... I'm having clearer vision of my future and things I want to do and achieve, at least in the short term future... hopefully, fingers crossed...

afterall, I feel like the luckiest person on earth... because no matter what happens out there, I'm still breathing and kicking... I'm still alive... all my prayers go to my family, especially my eldest sister... O Mi Tuo Fo...

Note (23 Nov 09): 1 knot = 1.151 m/hr ; 1.852 km/hr... I used wrong conversion yesterday... that's why wind speed written yesterday was 140 m/hr, faster than hurrican that hit Philipines... hahahaaha...