Ten Years Ago

I'm going to Hatyai tomorrow, almost exact 10 years since my first visit to this interesting biggest town of Southern Thailand province. Remembering the days 10 years ago, other than my own graduation from Imperial College with graduation ceremony held in Royal Albert Hall (still so proud of myself hahaha), the visit of my parents, brother and sister-in-law and my eldest sister in London, Paris and Cologne, Germany, there's another memorable event that also happened in that very same year.

Ten years ago I stopped by in Kuala Lumpur when I just came back to Malaysia after I completed my tertiary education in UK, . Parents, second sister flew over from Sarawak to attend my eldest sister's memorable graduation day. She graduated her 'Long Distance Law Degree Course' from University of London. With her persistent and determination, she overcame all her problems in work and life then managed to graduate from this challenging course. She never failed to impress us and we, the entire family, look up to her as our role model and we're so very very proud of her. Salute Big Sis ;-)

She attended my commemoration day about a month ago in UK, and then I attended her graduation in Kuala Lumpur, that was just awsome. Comparing to her road to graduation, I think I really had it easy. I had student loan, pocket money to spend, got the chance to spend 3 years oversea, travelled to few places in Europe, I have no complain at all. On the other hand, my big sister she had to endure the long and tough working hour, all the stress and pressure she faced with her work and life and the time spent for her studies. I think not many people could do as well as she did. Though she didn't pass with flying colours, she was only one of the only few that passed in her class, and if not mistaken, she was the only part time student in her class that passed. And she's always the No. 1 in our heart ;-)

She always has the right attitude and mind. In addition, she never stops learning and improving herself. She also very focus and always try her best in everything that she does, that would include her job, her social life, with friends and most impressively, in squash. She was Sabah's Open Squash Champion in year 1992, if memory serves me right (couldn't really remember, it was too long ago. I had problem to recall what I did yesterday hahaha). She also tries to enjoy everything that she does, every moment of her life. There are so many excellent quotes she mentioned to me before, the best one is this: "do your best, try your best, when you've done that, regardless of the result you get, when you look back in the future, you'll have no regrets". And till date, she still holds on to her principles and philosophies that make her the wonderful person she is now.

I truely respect her and I'm so lucky that I have her as my sister. Love always :-D

Oh Yeah !!!

Yesterday was a nice and satisfactory day for me. Reason being I finally exploded and expressed what I kept for sooooo long to a I would say self-centered selfish individual...

The war of words happened when I met this individual on Friday evening. End of our casual pretentious conversation I said keep in touch. The very next morning I received a sms that got my anger fired up so much that if transform the anger to fire it could burn down Twin Tower. This sms said: "You mentioned keep in touch, I sms you that day but you didn't reply. Did you know and mean what you said? If you forgot to reply I'll forgive you."

I replied...

SMS 1: Get hold of yourself. I dont live life to reply all your sms. I have my life to live and so have you. You are a matured women (or maybe I'm very wrong) you stop dwelling in this stupid crazy obsession. Keep in touch doesn't mean I need to call you every single day and reply all your sms like boyfriend you control. I dont need to seek your forgiveness, this is me, understand it and get over with your obsession and possessiveness. Sort out what's in your head, get it straight.

Then got another sms, which I've forgotten what it was about... My reply:

SMS 2: Yup busy just reached home. No need explanation no misunderstood as long as you speak truthfully and not being overly sensitive. We're not God who can answer all your wishes. We're only human being. We dont tell you our problems doesn't mean we dont have any. You got to understand as a human being. Please show me little bit of your wisdom. You love the company, good for you, I hope you'll shine under others' leadership. I can't help you no more as I run out of gas.

Then she replied something like my perception about her is not true at all (If not true she should be jumping up and down now not only smsing ;-)) and she lost respect when I said somehting... Can't remember as usual as I cannot remember all the negative things...

My reply:

SMS 3: Hahaha. As a friend let me open up your mind, otherwise will be too sad. Have you ever thought that perhaps I dont have another group? Furthermore, your group is most important to you, not mine. I've never asked what my 'superior' can do for me but what I can do for my group. That's the biggest different between you and me. Anyway, you won't understand coz you're self-centered. Doesn't matter to me at all whether you respect me or not. I only feel sad for you but I do hope this sms helps you open up your mind. All the best for whatever you undertake in the future. Ciao.

End of story. This story 'started' way back, few years ago... I'm lazy to go back time and write it all down... not worth it at all from my point of view... I've forgotten most of it already anyway...

I've learned a lot dealing with this crazy derranged individual. Most importantly, I know how to handle this type of person if I ever meet one again in my life. Gosh I hope not. Hahaha.

Things I learned: Honest to ourselves and others... Respect is earned but not asked for... First of all we have to respect ourselves... Improve ourselves from time to time by observation, listening, reading and seeking advice... Must be clear of what we do, otherwise we'll be lost in life... Don't expect too much from others, but expect from ourselves what we can do for others... I always look down on back-stabbing low-life, and will never change... We can be nice, but not to those who don't appreciate our kindness so we have to be hard and firm with them, dont need to give face... and etc etc... will add more when I have more inspiration... hahahaha...

Alright, enough for today :-D