New Year Resolution

This year I'll make a very simple new year resolution as well...

1. Earn more money

I've created my own finance tracking spreadsheet in September or October. Through it I realised something. Should an employee wants to improve his/her finance status, the 'extra income' on top of the salary plays a very important part. As salary is fixed every month, the extra income portion actually determines the status of wealth of us.

also, as inflation rate is always higher than interest rates and our merit increment, that means if we only depends on the fixed salary we earn, we will become poorer every year. Actually this is an understatement... basically everybody know about this fact... the question is whether we're doing something about it?

For me, i'm thinking about it a lot... not that i'm greedy about money, it's just that there are so many wonderful things I want to make it happen while I'm alive... money is not everything, but without money, the limit of things we can do is just too low... I still keep all my dreams and I want to make them come true, one by one...

and I'm really enjoying the life journey that i'm taking right now at this moment...

Old is Gone, New is here

well well well, it's been another year gone by... 2009 has been a good year... lots of happening... learned lots of new things... experienced things that have never experienced before... and i'm growing as a person, at least in my knowledge...

remembered that last year this time, i went to Genting to welcome year 2009 with colleague and his brother... i made a new year resolution there at the staircase (or steps rather) at the front entrance of First World Hotel... we were waiting for the traffic to clear then... and the resolution i made was the simplest of all time which is to make more money... all previous years I had many resolutions, i would write them on a paper, but normally that particular paper would disappear only maybe few days after new year... and I would forget all the resolutions i've written down... 2009 i thought I keep it simple, just make more money... haha...

and you know what? keep it simple is so powerful... I have a single target, i was focus on the target... so when the opportunity came along, i changed my job to earn more money... and the rest of things in my life sort of fall into places naturally... I had only one resolutions, but I've accomplished many things this year... for example, i wrote more blogs than last year simply because of the new job nature and I have more time for myself, my life, friends and most importantly, my family...

if anyone would ask me if i wanted to change anything, i would say, nope... i'm happy with the way it is, and i'm happy at where i'm in the stage of my life now...

i'm in Labuan now... it's quite happening... thought of going for massage as the nagging neck pain is coming back, but not today... i need to rush back to write something here, just before the clock ticks to 12:00am 01 Jan 2010...

and Big Sis, get well soonest... I know you can... we're going to Hanoi, Vietnam in March ohhhh...

On the Move

Been travelling a lot lately. Returned to KL from offshore, rested for one day, the following day when to KSB for 2 days, came to Labuan the very next day. Didn't really have any rest. Good thing was that managed to catch up with KL old friends in badminton session before coming to Labuan. Also travelled in business class from KL to Labuan, which I only knew when I checked in. I thought to myself, my goodness, luckily I chose to wear jeans instead of the normal short I always wear that day. Haha. Had good rest with good seat and the stewardess gave good service.

Came to Labuan to stand in for the warehouse supervisor here. He'll be going off to year end holiday till next year. Handover was only for few hours, I hope I captured everything that I needed to do during my stay here.

Work has been interesting. Knowing that I'm improving bit by bit everyday is satisfying. Hope will be given my lead assignment soon. If things go as per plan, I hope to be working out of Malaysia soon. If possible I would hope to land a new benefits to be based out of Malaysia, I have no intention at all to pay income tax anymore. It's just a waste of my money to pay income tax to this rotten and selfish government.

Finally I have the chance to stay in Hotel Pulau Labuan 2. Have been hearing about it for so many years. This is 'THE' hotel for BJ Services. Now I know what it is like. Haha. I stay in Deluxe VIP room, which costs RM138 per night, still much cheaper than Hotel Tiara Labuan Apartment which we normally stay that costs RM270 per night. Seems like the hotel business picks up during the end of the year. Many hotels are fully booked till end of the year. Luckily Deluxe VIP room is available for at least one whole week i.e. I don't need to move around like a normad.

There are few things that Pulau Labuan 2 could do better.

1. build a lift.

2. use different detergent, the entire hotel has a cheap detergent smell (maybe it's just me only).

3. housekeeping should collect laundry from room (now guests have to take own laundry down to reception at lobby - walk, no lift).

4. improve the wi-fi service. It's accessible at lobby and maybe first floor. I'm staying at second floor, so no wi-fi loh.

This is good for me, as I'm gaining knowledge in hotel business. I still hope one day my dream of owning a hotel will come true ;-)

Another good things about this job is that I could rent car on company expense. So far I've driven Nissan X-Trail, Nissan Sentral, Toyota Vios, Honda City and Daewoo. Tomorrow car rental guy will deliver a new Honday Civic to replace the Honda City that I'm driving. Hahaha.

Life has been intriguing and inspiring. No more routine. Now always expect the unexpected. Nothing is permanent.

Offshore Holiday

December... Many people are already on the year end holiday, vacation or planning for one soon. Year end school holiday and Christmas fall on this month. Generally people would take time off to enjoy the family time and go away to relax to wind down on a hectic year.

As I'm writing this article I'm actually in the middle of the ocean, erm, South China Sea. I'm on Tioman T-9 rig, and it's at EPMI's Guntong D platform for my work. Sometimes sleep at night, work in the day time, sometimes it's the other way round. There is no normal life out here.

However, I'm quite enjoying this job and life. It's exciting and not common. Has anyone not working offshore had the chance to job on the helideck in the middle of ocean before? looking at the sunset / sunrise so near to you? seeing the half moon hanging in the middle of the night in a distance I feel like I could touch it? eat hagen daz ice cream for free? experience the wind speed of up to 70 knots? work in the condition where wind speed is 50 knots? catering crew to take care of your life 24 hours a day, 7 days a week? BBQ during weekend above the sea? realised that some seawater fish actually eat bones? watch dolphines 'dance' around in this wide open sea (not sea park)? Telephone, Astro and internet are available, hard to imagine, right?

Well, of course I wish for a proper holiday for December, but at the moment, rig is experiencing some problem which delays everything right now. Only God knows when we'll resume the work. But at the moment, I'll just relax and chill out here, enjoy the nature, take time to catch up with things in life, catch up with friends online... Hell, this feels like a holiday as well, and it's December... hahaha...

Date: 09 Dec 09

Hotel: Rig Tioman T-9

Room No.: 12

Location: Guntong D (One hour chopper ride from Kerteh Airport)

Holiday period: 16 hours (too short but better than nothing)

Total Expenditure: FOC (:-P)

Chilling Out

Wake up naturally, don't even need to worry about going to office or what to do today, online surfing internet, chat with friends, eat some junk food, nap, watch some movies, cartoons, do some house work, write some articles, no worries about what's gonna happen tomorrow... haha, sounds like an ideal chill out day...

And yup, that's my day today... 01 Dec 09... One fine day it turned out to be... Feel like a recharged battery, full of energy right now...

Once in a while we really need to recharge our battery... Hmmm, guess it would be different for a married person... I'll worry about it later, but right now at this moment, I'm glad to have this quiet time and my own space... Nobody disturbs me, and I'm glad I didn't receive call from office for any assignment... hahaha...

Well, the only disturbance I had today was when the old customers called to ask something. They were with my ex-colleague. I couldn't really remember what happened then, it was quite long time ago... Just funny why they would call me... In my opinion, they should call the District Manager to find out more details... anyway, I'm glad I was able to help out a little bit... hahaha...

This morning also managed to catch up with a long lost friend. We last met in April 2001 if I got the date right... She's been lost in the air for such a long time... Through Facebook we managed to find each other again. Owe a big one to Facebook, really... She's now happily married with 2 really cute daughters... Next year when she moves back to BKK maybe able to meet up with her and her family...

Also a friend told me that she received good news about the business she's doing right now... she's been a bit down lately because of this... everything turned out to be just fine... happy to hear...

Afternoon rented a cartoon DVD, Japanese series, Bow Wow. It's about a very naughty and funny dog... good cartoon, i like it very much since the first time I read its comic way back in Leicester Library in London like 10 years ago...

Oh well, it's a good day today... tomorrow will be another day we live for... things will turn out just fine as long as we always still alive with hopes... **** Something just came into my mind right now... it's good to be alive, and please, take a moment, feel our breath... it's beautiful, isn't it? This is what keeps us alive... Stay alive is the most important thing in the world... Without live, without you...

Stay alive, hmmm, I guess I have some inspiration on my next topic right now... hahaha...

华文版

好久都没有些华文了， 感觉真的好陌生。 今天选择写一写只是想看看到底自己的华文还剩下多少， 哈哈！！！
时间过得真快， 每天都告诉自己， 要早睡早起， 身体才会健康。 可是不到一点凌晨都不甘心睡觉， 要多点的纪律。
好吧 ! 今天就到此为止， 下次再接再厉。 今天算是做了个突破。 哈哈 ！！！

Time Travelling

Today I watched movie 'The Time Traveller's Wife'. The story is unique, interesting but a little confusing. I still don't understand why the main character travelled through time. Somehow it just happened. haha...

There are two scenes that I was very touched though. One is when the wife was giving birth to the daughter, scene when she's in the hospital 'pushing' the baby out of her worm (errr, is this correct term???)... she finally became a mum after so many tries (apparently the fetus inherited the father's gene, could travel through time so the mother miscarriaged so many times)... It was a happy moment when she finally became a mother... that reminded me of all mothers in this world especially my mum... the pain they've gone through... SALUTE and RESPECT...

Second scene was when he travelled to the future, 4 years after his tragic death... The wife still left clothes in the wood for him everyday, even after he died (he would travel without a thread on him when he time-travelled)... The wife said, 'you'll never know' (when he would appear)... and the wife was running with lightning speed when she knew that he finally returned, or should I say, came to the future (quite confusing leh hahaha)... well, that's love... love that lasts endlessly with time... they loved each other unconditionally... well, could two persons really love each other that much?

Ironically I watched a movie this morning that I downloaded. The name of the movie is Cage, it's a French movie (I think it's French)... at the beginning of this movie the couple loved each other sooooo much... the lady told the guy that she couldn't remember a day that she didn't love him... Unfortunately an accident caused the lady the ability to speak... they've tried so many things to try to cure the lady to speak again as she has the phobia and lost in confident in herself after the accident... After one year, the guy told the lady that he couldn't go on with that anymore... he doesn't love the lady anymore... he was in love with the lady before the accident, not the lady who lost her confidence and with the disability after the accident. In this movie, the forever love lasted only one year... and the so-called forever love is conditioned... It all changed after condition changed...

So I guess, anything could happen in life... one way or another... two extreme stories in one day... well, all the best to everyone... whatever happens, just remember, everything happens for the best reason... we live only once... those who believe in reincarnation, well, we wouldn't remember what happened in our past lives... so enjoy this life... live life to the fullest... we wouldn't be able to travel through time and see people from the past or hold on to people we love forever... appreciate people around us... don't let go any hope that we have even in the toughest time in our lives :-D

Fear Of Being Close To Someone

Was chatting with a friend earlier, this came in our conversation. I was 'listening' (in fact reading text) but didn't say much... We have to listen to others especially friends. However, this inspires me to write... hehehe...

Sounds familiar? I guess this happens to many of us at one stage of our life. We have family members (parents, siblings, relatives etc), good friends, close friends, closest friends, best friends, God brothers, God sisters etc. Somehow, where are they now? What are they doing now? What on earth did happen that we all lost contact with almost everyone?

When we were younger, we lacked the maturity and wisdom to maintain a relationship. When we're close to someone, we tend to have high expectation of him / her. We expect he/she understands us like how well we understand ourselves (Now think, do we ourselves understand ourselves that much?). We expect other party would understand even if we frown. Some people would give everything to the relationship and holds nothing back. Some would become obsess with others especially in boyfriend-girlfriend relationship.

Unfortunately, we all know now that it doesn't work that way. As our expectations got higher, we would be hurt more easily. For example, I'm a very punctual person, why on earth you didn't call me earlier to tell me that you would be late by half an hour? When this happened one time, OK, can be forgiven. Second time, well, be patient. Third time, would be one time too many. Bomb, exploded. Worst would be the end of the relationship / friendship. One would say, I give you so much, but this is what I get from you? This is a very simple example only. I'm sure anyone could come up with better example than this.

I still remember I had a Korean friend I met in UK. He once told me that he got into fights with his best friends because they didn't give him a farewell party / gathering before he left for UK for his study. After that incident the friendship turned sour. He didn't care much about them anymore even though his friends were still treating him like before. He really expected too much from his friends. Later he admitted that his friends were planning something for him, just that he expected them to do something earlier. That was the reason he was still angry with them. Goodness me, even for me at the age of 24 then.

Does it sound fair? In my humble opinion, this is very wrong. Everyone is an unique individual. Everyone has his/her thoughts. Everyone has his/her own privacy. Everyone has his/her own priority. Everyone has his/her limitations. This is because we're human. Human is not perfect. We all are not perfect. And the basic of relationship / friendship is that we have to respect each other. We need to know everyone is an unique individual and we need to respect his/her thoughts, privacy, priority and limitations. We cannot expect too much from others. That include our parents and siblings, the closest people to us in this world. They too have their life to live. We live, we face challenges in life, we solve them ourselves by getting helps from others. At the end, we have to solve challenges / problems ourselves. We can't expect others to do it for us because it's simply cannot be done.

Some would say, well, I give everything I have for this relationship / friendship. Think again, everybody needs a private space for themselves. There is limitation and 'boundaries'. Giving too much is not healthy as we need to let other people to give too. Give and take makes 'Ying Yang' balance. Hence, healthy relationship / friendship. hahaha...

The best thing to maintain a relationship / friendship is communication and respect each other. Communicate well with others, don't just assume. Assume is a form of expectation. When everybody is clear and in the same page, things will turn out to be good and fun and satisfying and enjoyable. Always remember to respect other's opinion and choices. Everyone does something for a good reason. And always remember things happens for the best reason. With the mindset, perhaps feeling hurt when our close friends did not meet our expectation could be reduced to minimum.

Life is short. Take it easy. There is no need for us to be hurt because of this. If we're stil hurt because of this, that means we still haven't matured enough to forgive and forget. Open up our heart to accept the fact that nobody will ever fulfill our expectations. Open up our mind to accept that we're all imperfect creature in this world. Accept the fact that we're all imperfect is the perfect way to be happy and harmony with the world.

Being close to someone is a blessing. How many of us could say that we have many close friends? Some are not even in good relationship with parents and siblings, just look at the Americans :-p... I do hope in the future don't be scared of being close to someone.

This is just my thought. I'm sure there're plenty of people who don't agree with me. Well, doesn't matter. This is only my humble thought ;-)

Civilization

Wind speed of 50 knot and heavy rains in the middle of the ocean, bye bye, see you later... When the chopper took off at 10.20am today, I know I'm gonna miss all those crazy things that happened there... how could I not? I feel so very close to the nature out there than in the concrete jungle, of course...

When chopper landed at Kerteh airport, I surprised even myself... I didn't have any excitement or feeling extra happy for being back on mainland... I wonder why... well, perhaps I have always been the nature loving person... I love the sea, I love wind (movement of the air), I love rain, and I guess most importantly, life is so much less stressful out there than in town... I had such a clear and calm mind...

So civilization? what is it about to be precise? is it called civilization because of all the fancy technology that we have in this modern days? Or we human have lost the natural instinct and become too dependable to all the modern gadgets? Some places in this world people / politicians misuse these gadgets hence created chaos / wars for their own benefits / hobbies or whatever reasons... Have human beings actually been advancing in the right direction?

Whenever I'm back home in Sarawak, I see the tribal natives who still live in the remote villages and maintain their way of living since, god knows how long ago. I thought to myself: to them, is civilization important? without any knowledge of what's happening outside of their world, they do live happily and enjoying life perhaps much more than anyone of us... Not only in my hometown, this happens to those less developed areas in countries like Cambodia, Thailand, China and I noticed that this also applies in the US as well when I spent 6 months there for my work training...

Well, civilization, is it really important? hmmm, hard to say... all depends on our own perception of life I guess... hahahaha...

New Path

Was reading newspaper when the bright golden sunshine caught my attention from the right side of my vision... I looked up... WOW!!!!!! The entire skyline was in golden colour... It was the most splended sunset I ever seen...

I was on my way to KL from Labuan on 17 July 09. Flight departed at around 5.20pm... It was about 7pm and I was at about 13K ft above ground when I saw this breathtaking sunset...

The above 'set' was written on 17 July 09... It is 23 Nov 09 now... I couldn't finish the above article at that time, because I didn't know how to continue... also I guess I was tired from the travelling that I fell asleep half way writing that piece... hahaha... what an excuse...

the truth is that, I 've changed my so-called career path since July. I've started something totally new to me, and it's a new challenge I have to face (sounds like fear factor). I was a little anxious, little worried and at the same time excited to see what the future holds for me... taking up this new job partly because I've set my targets I want to achieve in life (this job at least give me the free time I always long for), I know my shortcoming in my character and personality hence I want to improve myself to be a better person, I want to live the life I once dreamed of because I dont want to have regrets later when I get older (I know I should have gotten this type of job like 10 years ago hahaha)... also, I would say it's time for me to move on from cementing with the same company which I dont see myself having a promising future anyway... I got this good opportunity, I grapped it... I wish for the very best in my own future and I'll make things work to show that I've made a right choice... hahaha...

Satisfaction

The feeling of satisfaction means that we're happy with the results of work done or the outcome of the thing we do fall within the expectation. That's what I'm feeling right now. After hard work under extreme (for me) conditions for few days, we finally completed what we're set to do on this rig without much complications. It's such a good feeling to know that the client appreciates what we did. Proudly to say I have gained my confidence that I lost a little while ago. I hope I can remember the feeling right now and will carry this momentum with me for the rest of my life. Life is too short lah and we should go forward and face the challenges in life without fear and like my colleague said, dont think too much... I guess what he really wanted to say is do what we're supposed and set out to do, dont get deviated from the goal... I guess life is sometimes as simple as that huh...

Blogging

Read articles from a friend this evening... she's been writing a lot of articles, and I normally would read her blog titles sent to me in my email but didn't have much time to read them...

she's been writing a lot since she became mother to her almost one year old daughter (I hope I'm right with the age hahaha)... she's been writing about the growth of her daughter, her experience as a mum, breast feeding, the determination of being a breast feeding mum (I dont know what she's talking about though) etc etc... her writing skill has improved tremendously since the last time I read her articles and I'm impressed... suddenly I'm also motivated to write more hahaha... I have lots of things to write, and hopefully I can keep this blog updated more often than before... hahaha...

Signing out now... hope will find the ommphhh to keep fingers moving tomorrow... hahaha...

Monsoon Season

It's been a while since I last wrote here. Always have lots of ideas, the only challenge is to put them into words... there are few articles which I didn't finish writting them hahaha...

anyway, I'm now onboard Ensco 106, offshore Terengganu / Kelantan, if i'm not mistaken, I'm very near to Thailand water now... the weather has not been friendly to us since I came onboard... heavy rain, strong wind... well, it's year end, and people called it Monsoon Season... the highest wind speed recorded this morning was 83 knot, which is just little less than 95 m/hr. About an hour ago, it was announced that the wind speed was 63 knot, which is about 72 m/hr. Sounds scary heh...

I'm quite excited about this bad weather actually... first of all, this is my first time experiencing this kind of strong wind...

secondly, I really like to see the big waves gently dancing below my feet...

thirdly, I like to see rain drops dropping horizontally instead of what we see in town with gravity effect, vertically...

forthly, it feels nice, cozy and SAFE to be staying inside this firm and strong accommodation here with the sense of feeling lucky that I dont need to be working outside and not exposed to this kind of rough condition all the time...

fifth, internet connection and phone services are still working fine, we're still connected to civilization, hahaha...

sixth, this quiet period gives me time to 'defrag' my brains... there are so much happening the past few months, and I dont really have the luxury to absorb what had happened... I'm having clearer vision of my future and things I want to do and achieve, at least in the short term future... hopefully, fingers crossed...

afterall, I feel like the luckiest person on earth... because no matter what happens out there, I'm still breathing and kicking... I'm still alive... all my prayers go to my family, especially my eldest sister... O Mi Tuo Fo...

Note (23 Nov 09): 1 knot = 1.151 m/hr ; 1.852 km/hr... I used wrong conversion yesterday... that's why wind speed written yesterday was 140 m/hr, faster than hurrican that hit Philipines... hahahaaha...

None

Well, it's been a while now since i last posted the last article. In a blink of an eye, 3 months have passed by. 3 months of my life... that's 90 days of my life... 2160 hours... 129600 mins... 7,776,000 seconds... WAHHHHHHH... such a big number... I wonder if I actually realise how precious these seconds are... I 've to admit that, I only counted these numbers when I sat in front of the laptop typing the words out...

Time flies... too fast... appreciate what we have at the moment... enjoy life... live life to the fullest (I guess this sentence means more to me than ever)...

Well, at the moment I still couldnt' have peace in mind... last one month so much has happened... I still need time to absorb and come to terms with all that happened...

This article is a part of 'defragmentation' of my mind... Will be able to write more later... :-p

Ten Years Ago

I'm going to Hatyai tomorrow, almost exact 10 years since my first visit to this interesting biggest town of Southern Thailand province. Remembering the days 10 years ago, other than my own graduation from Imperial College with graduation ceremony held in Royal Albert Hall (still so proud of myself hahaha), the visit of my parents, brother and sister-in-law and my eldest sister in London, Paris and Cologne, Germany, there's another memorable event that also happened in that very same year.

Ten years ago I stopped by in Kuala Lumpur when I just came back to Malaysia after I completed my tertiary education in UK, . Parents, second sister flew over from Sarawak to attend my eldest sister's memorable graduation day. She graduated her 'Long Distance Law Degree Course' from University of London. With her persistent and determination, she overcame all her problems in work and life then managed to graduate from this challenging course. She never failed to impress us and we, the entire family, look up to her as our role model and we're so very very proud of her. Salute Big Sis ;-)

She attended my commemoration day about a month ago in UK, and then I attended her graduation in Kuala Lumpur, that was just awsome. Comparing to her road to graduation, I think I really had it easy. I had student loan, pocket money to spend, got the chance to spend 3 years oversea, travelled to few places in Europe, I have no complain at all. On the other hand, my big sister she had to endure the long and tough working hour, all the stress and pressure she faced with her work and life and the time spent for her studies. I think not many people could do as well as she did. Though she didn't pass with flying colours, she was only one of the only few that passed in her class, and if not mistaken, she was the only part time student in her class that passed. And she's always the No. 1 in our heart ;-)

She always has the right attitude and mind. In addition, she never stops learning and improving herself. She also very focus and always try her best in everything that she does, that would include her job, her social life, with friends and most impressively, in squash. She was Sabah's Open Squash Champion in year 1992, if memory serves me right (couldn't really remember, it was too long ago. I had problem to recall what I did yesterday hahaha). She also tries to enjoy everything that she does, every moment of her life. There are so many excellent quotes she mentioned to me before, the best one is this: "do your best, try your best, when you've done that, regardless of the result you get, when you look back in the future, you'll have no regrets". And till date, she still holds on to her principles and philosophies that make her the wonderful person she is now.

I truely respect her and I'm so lucky that I have her as my sister. Love always :-D

Oh Yeah !!!

Yesterday was a nice and satisfactory day for me. Reason being I finally exploded and expressed what I kept for sooooo long to a I would say self-centered selfish individual...

The war of words happened when I met this individual on Friday evening. End of our casual pretentious conversation I said keep in touch. The very next morning I received a sms that got my anger fired up so much that if transform the anger to fire it could burn down Twin Tower. This sms said: "You mentioned keep in touch, I sms you that day but you didn't reply. Did you know and mean what you said? If you forgot to reply I'll forgive you."

I replied...

SMS 1: Get hold of yourself. I dont live life to reply all your sms. I have my life to live and so have you. You are a matured women (or maybe I'm very wrong) you stop dwelling in this stupid crazy obsession. Keep in touch doesn't mean I need to call you every single day and reply all your sms like boyfriend you control. I dont need to seek your forgiveness, this is me, understand it and get over with your obsession and possessiveness. Sort out what's in your head, get it straight.

Then got another sms, which I've forgotten what it was about... My reply:

SMS 2: Yup busy just reached home. No need explanation no misunderstood as long as you speak truthfully and not being overly sensitive. We're not God who can answer all your wishes. We're only human being. We dont tell you our problems doesn't mean we dont have any. You got to understand as a human being. Please show me little bit of your wisdom. You love the company, good for you, I hope you'll shine under others' leadership. I can't help you no more as I run out of gas.

Then she replied something like my perception about her is not true at all (If not true she should be jumping up and down now not only smsing ;-)) and she lost respect when I said somehting... Can't remember as usual as I cannot remember all the negative things...

My reply:

SMS 3: Hahaha. As a friend let me open up your mind, otherwise will be too sad. Have you ever thought that perhaps I dont have another group? Furthermore, your group is most important to you, not mine. I've never asked what my 'superior' can do for me but what I can do for my group. That's the biggest different between you and me. Anyway, you won't understand coz you're self-centered. Doesn't matter to me at all whether you respect me or not. I only feel sad for you but I do hope this sms helps you open up your mind. All the best for whatever you undertake in the future. Ciao.

End of story. This story 'started' way back, few years ago... I'm lazy to go back time and write it all down... not worth it at all from my point of view... I've forgotten most of it already anyway...

I've learned a lot dealing with this crazy derranged individual. Most importantly, I know how to handle this type of person if I ever meet one again in my life. Gosh I hope not. Hahaha.

Things I learned: Honest to ourselves and others... Respect is earned but not asked for... First of all we have to respect ourselves... Improve ourselves from time to time by observation, listening, reading and seeking advice... Must be clear of what we do, otherwise we'll be lost in life... Don't expect too much from others, but expect from ourselves what we can do for others... I always look down on back-stabbing low-life, and will never change... We can be nice, but not to those who don't appreciate our kindness so we have to be hard and firm with them, dont need to give face... and etc etc... will add more when I have more inspiration... hahahaha...

Alright, enough for today :-D

Futsal

ahh... it's me again sitting in front of laptop during lunch time (:-p) writing another 'blog' of my life... This time I'm going to write about my fondness towards Futsal I recently discovered...

All my life I somehow have no interest on football... to me, 24 people running up and down in a big field kicking one small ball around and trying to shot it into iron 'frames' doesn't really make sense to me... hahaha... I'm waiting for someone to throw eggs at me now ;-)...

Things take a turn recently as friends organise futsal sessions... well, to be honest, i'm kinda desperate to do some exercise as i feel that i'm weakening for not putting my body / muscles into use for quite sometime... so i joined in the group hoping just to get some exercise and not score my own goal... hahaha...

My first futsal session turned out to be much better than I expected... at first i didn't know what was going on on the court... friend told me just kick the ball whenever the ball comes to me... well, that's easy... hmmm... not really to be honest... it's easier to say than done... but the more i ran around like a mad man and kicking the ball, the more i feel 'connected' to this sport... i actually enjoyed the moment... i like the feeling of whole body workout, kick the balls with clear mind, manage your play, mind telling the legs what to do, team work and the adrenaline rush... i guess it's the process of learning new things that spice up my life again... and also new things that i learn about myself... i realised that I can actually use my legs to kick... hahaha...

At the same time i also learned the game more... striker, defender, midfield, goalkeeper... it has its own system that manage the whole game... just like everything else in the world... somehow as I age I now do understand the phrase 'The World Is Round' better and better...

Now I like the game more... next world cup I guess I know where I will be... in front of TV or at mamak store or pup with friends cheering ... haha...

There is no definite things in the world... things change from time to time... we as the living creature on the surface of the earth flexibility is the way to survive, to live, to enjoy this once in a lifetime journey... there is no U turn in our life... always keep an open mind to accept what comes along and reject whatever that would harm / hurt / not beneficial to us... and also, do always have the pure / naive / childish side of us (update when I find the correct vocab) as this makes us want to learn more, want to know more, exquisitive, to be inspired and hopefully we will inspire others one day... dont be bogged down by the social perception of what adults should / should not do... just listen to our heart and do what we think we really want... life journey is like a learning curve... never stop learning... the day we stop learning is the day we are actually 'dead'...

Can go on and on, but not sure i'm clear enough in expressing my thoughts... still learning... hahaha... last but not least, enjoy our life out there... be safe... and will talk about my thoughts of what we always say: 'enjoy life'... and dont fall asleep... hahaha...

2009

It's 09 March, 2009... and not really proud of myself, but this is actually the first post I write this year... goodness me... looking back 2009, I wonder how on earth the time flies by so quickly... a blink of an eye and we're already in March... sounds very scary...

so far this year has been challenging and i have had opportunities to learn new things to make my life more colourful and fulfilling... which is nice of course... otherwise life would become too routine that I would soon lose interest in what I do...

i went countdown in Genting Highland with colleague and his brother... didn't have much to do on that day... some friends invited to go The Curve and few other hot spots but finally I decided Genting is the place this year... didn't want to go to overly crowded places in KL... it turned out to be an excellent outing... the journey to Genting is quite interesting too, as my colleague finally convinced that his Waja has the 'power' to reach the highland resort... hahaha... the cold air was so refreshing in Genting Highland we soon forgot the tiredness after a long stressful day at work... we were pumped and excited...

Genting was already crowded... we walked around... breathed in fresh air with lots of negative ions... walking in Genting and chill wind blowing, my mind was cleared as if the wind had blown away the trouble in life... hahaha... we need this more often... i mean the fresh air and away day from our normal stressful life... need to bleed off pressure... life is too short... need to enjoy every moments of it...

fireworks was nice... i took photo my colleague took video... anyone interested let me know ;-)... price is cheap cheap only... hahahaha... just joking...

after fireworks we proceed to the arcade... didn't plan to play but since had nothing else to do... Genting can be as boring as hell if you dont go to the Casino... hahaha... we changed RM50 token thinking that if can't finished it we would get our change back... really had fun there... felt like college time de javu... but the balance of about RM20 was stolen from us... apparently they dont refund the balance... only got back the deposit of RM5... that's very very bad...

we sat on the steps in front of First World Hotel, sipping our coffee at 3 in the morning, watching cars 'jamming' their way back to 'concrete jungle'... do we actually need all these stress to survive??? I ponder...

On the way to our car we saw KL night scene... it was beautiful... with my ordinary camera i took a photo with shuttle opened for 48 seconds... to my surprise how good this old camera could be... taken an excellent photo of KL night scene... splendid everybody else said... not only me... hahaha... so proud of my camera... and of course, my skill... hehehe...

recapturing what had happened is not an easy task... especially after long stressful and eventful 3 months... but it's always good to remember the good times...

more to come next :-D...