Thoughts in Traffic Jam

On Sunday evening, on my way from Kajang to town to meet a friend, out of my expectation, traffic was worse than normal working day... at the beginning I was angry, I was furious... I didn't like the traffic jam... I don't like to stuck in traffic jam and waste my precious time in the car... feel like an idiot (or maybe I am one... hahaha...)... wanted to turn back... but of course as usual, there was no way out... and as usual, I would calm myself down and as usual, the mind started wandering :-D

Earlier that very same day, I was reading my favourite kung fu comic book... there were 2 philosophies which made me think and reflex them in me...

First one, an older brother scolded his younger brother that since young this younger brother had been spoiled and never did try his best in everything he did... the only thing that the younger brother knew what to do was run away and asked for help before even trying to solve problems when he faced one...

Second one was a hero was saying to this 'Best in the world' guy, that the meaning of 'Best of all' is fully utilise the short period of time our life has to offer, make the best out of it and leave a eternal mark in this world that the future generations to come would remember forever... Let the flame burns forever and ever...

First of all, looking back to my short journey thus far, I always thought I haven't done my very best in everything I've done (of course not as bad as the younger brother in the comic book)... I knew I could do better... but some how, the determination, persistency and will power always fall short... Second philosophy kinda showed me light of what I want to do from now on... Do the best, minimise the regrets in life is my philosophy... these two useful philosophies I came across in the comic book have enhanced my own believes and from now on I'll do my very best and hopefully when I look back my life, I would have smile on my face...

Life is a learning journey... As long as we put our mind and soul into what we do and learn the maximum out of it, I know then that I'm heading the right way :-)... fingers-crossed... hopefully...

And who said comic is for kids only? It largely depends on whether the reader has the wisdom to learn from them or not... wuahahahahaha...

Samsung Omnia

It's been a long time I since I last update here. So much to do so little time. Time flies by so quickly it's scary to think of it.

So many things happened since I last wrote here. I'll take my own sweet time to catch up with the rest of the stories of the past couple of months, but here I'll write what has just happened yesterday.

Few colleagues have been talking about new phone in market, touch screen elegant cutting-edge technology phone, Samsung Omnia. They decided to go to Low Yat Plaza after work yesterday to check on it. Even though I'm not going to buy one since I always think that it's not worth to spend so much on a mobile phone, I decided to join the crowd - nothing to do and wanted to 'update' myself with the current technology.

Reached Low Yat plaza at around 6pm. It is a good phone, if you don't know about it, please google it. I don't know how to write a review just yet... hahaha.

Found a good shop which offered good price and low interest rate for the easy pay installment. Around 8.30pm everything completed. But we felt so exhausted almost pengsan. We really cannot understand in general how females can shop of hours and hours and hours and not feeling tired... hahaha... respect !!!

Asking myself, do I need to use this cutting-edge tech phone? I guess when I'm so busy with lots of business information need to retrieve, update, record, reply tonnes of emails and attachments, need to use microsoft office all the time. Till then, no thanks. I prefer to spend my money travelling around :-D

Travelling

I just realized that I've been posting lots of traveling story lately... Hmmm, in fact I love to travel and traveling makes me happy :-))

I always wanted to involve in travel agency business, hotels, car rental etc... I have a dream also to open a hotel in Tibet... hahaha... a bit insane and far fetched... but as long as I keep the dream alive, I know one day, maybe 10 years from now I'll make dreams come true... but now have to struggle a bit more... it's totally worth it... result doesn't really matter, most important is we try our best... The most important thing is to learn from the experience and be a better person from the experience we learn :-)...

Trip to Kota Kinabalu Day 1

Bought the ticket few months back when Air Asia has the Free Seat Promotion. It's been many years since I last step foot on the Land Below the Wind.

Friday 5 Sept, 08, 1730 hours was the flight to Kota Kinabalu (KK). I was so excited. I took a half day off to pack but I dozed off till 4.30pm and taxi would come at 5pm. Story of my life, everything is last minute. When I reached KK I realized I forgot to bring few essential things but now I couldnt recall what, coz it's no big deal. Take it easy, just chill and enjoy life man, dont put too much pressure on ourselves and stressed out. Life is too short for all these negative energy ;-)

Before I went, I contacted Imperial College course mate and we're gonna meet up for some booze. Hahaha. It's also been a while since I last met him, few years ago when he and his mum and sisters came to KL. Long time and time flies by so fast we didn't realize it's been gone. Scary.

Reached KK Terminal 2 airport at around 9.45pm, aircraft touched down 15 mins earlier. It's so typical of air asia - speeding. hahaha. Came out of the airport, met my friend, and first thing we did was heading to Tanjung Aru. I missed Tanjung Aru very much. It's where I enjoyed drinking coconut drink the most. Sitting by the beach, wind blowing gently and enjoying the last 'hurray' of sunlight before completely sumberged in the sea. It was also my school of Form 4 and Form 5 situated. In school sport day, marathon was mandatory for everybody. Bloody 10km, we run around Tanjung Aru town, to the beach and back to school. Such a torture. The second year I think I 'call in sick' or something, couldn't recall clearly now.

But now Tanjung Aru is not the same as 15 years ago. At that time there were only few food stalls and was really like the kampung place. It felt like ages ago, nowadays it looks like a proper developed attraction for tourists, with gated parking, 'modern' restaurant and even the hawker center looks descent. Where was my coconut at those kampung stall? Sigh... but it was still good to sit by the beach where I sat on the same spot many many years ago :-)...

Let's talk about KK. It's clean and tidy, drivers are polite, people are still friendly. The land below the wind, it's a little busy town yet you can find peace amidst the town itself. It's busy at the same time laid back. It's unique. The energy of the land tells me that people who live there are kind, straight forward, more decisive than other parts of Malaysia. I guess because of this energy from the motherland the ladies are more beautiful than other parts of Malaysia as well... I fall in love with KK already... hahaha... well, I know only few or none understand what I'm saying here :-D...

Well, day 1 is from 10pm on Friday till 12am of Saturday... My story continues... No photo here as photography session started only on the second day hahaha...

My Melaka Trip

I didn't manage to get ticket to Hatyai as all train tickets on Friday night (29 Aug 08) were sold out. Sigh... there goes my adventure trip into the drain... was disappointed... what should I do during this long weekend? I wanted to get out of KL...

Chatted with a colleague. I said might be going to Melaka and she said she wanted to go as well. Go for makan makan trip. Haha, good idea. And my manager would be balik kampung on Sunday, so would try to catch him there.

When I woke up on Sat, 30 Aug, 08, i felt so lethargic. So Sat it was 'homely' day.

Sunday finally came. Was energetic and looking forward to this trip. After 2 hours drive, Melaka, here we are. Manager took us to try the fish ball kuey teow... it was nice, but instead of the famous fish ball, both my colleague and I agreed that the pork ball tastes better. Haha...

And so nice of manager that he actually became the tour guide, drove us here and there visiting the famous Hang Li Poh's Well, St. John's Fort, Tan Kim Hock, Jonker Street, Satay Celup place - Ban Li Siang (Something like that lah) and last but not least, his apartment near the port, which he bought about 20 years ago (very proud statement) :-p. Manager told us that during his University day he used to be the tour guide for his friends as well. Guess our visit brought back good memories of his younger years. hahaha...

My colleague was apparently more excited about the trip than me as well. She has gathered so much information on --- what else as Malaysian? FOOD !!! From the start, she was saying her sister told her where where where can eat this this this, another friend told here where where where can eat that that that... At the end, we were like, WAHHH, do we have the stomach to eat all those delicious food? Hmmm...

At the end when we left Melaka, we were satisfied with the away from KL trip. and we managed to try almost everything in our list except errr, the most famous Chicken Rice Ball (the queue was too long too scary). Once in a while we all need to 'bleed off' pressure from our work and daily life. We need to take a break once in a while to refresh ourselves and be ready to face challenges that lie ahead :-)

Laksamana Cheng Ho --- Perhaps my best buddy in previous life... hahaha...

Hang Li Poh's Well or King's Well

My shop (same name) ;-)

The world's most modern Heritage - Melaka

Melaka River

Jonker Street as night falls

Satay Celup place and the crowd it attracts is just unbelievable

The very famous Satay Celup

My Kunming Trip

Ah, it's Thursday 6.30pm and I'm still in office trying to finish off end of well report due tomorrow. It's tiring and requires lots energy for it. So taking a break now trying not to exert myself too much. It's been a long day by the way.

Since there's nothing much to do in office anyway, let me try to put up a post with photos... Learning... ;-)

Here are some photos of my Kunming trip end of June

Welcome gift from the local minority beautiful lady ;-)

Local Lion Dance - so different from Malaysia 'born' Lion Dance

Ahhh, so relaxing at this 'Stone Jungle'

Tibet house with Hui Ting, Elken upline

This weekend will be Malaysia's Merdeka weekend. Recently life has been monotonous and routine... too much work... tiring... thinking of hop on to a train heading to Hatyai tomorrow night and come back on Sunday... I miss this train journey a lot since the last and only time I took it in Oct 2003 when I travelled with 3 other friends for our memorable Thailand backpacking trip... It's a 16 hours journey anyway, by the time arriving Hatyai I would have to hop on to another train to come back to KL :-))... I purely want to enjoy the journey only ;-)... My friend said I'm crazy... Yeah, we should do something that scares ourselves more often to add interesting spices in our lives...

Should I should I not? Well, will see which side of bed I wake up tomorrow hahahaha...

Wake Up On Wrong Side of Bed

Yesterday was totally not my day. Was woken up by a phone call at 9am. On a normal day it would be ok but yesterday was a Saturday. How I wish I could wake up naturally after I have 'enough' sleep. Body and mind were still tired. It's perfectly normal to feel a bit agitated, consciously or subconsciously.

By 11am, I had to pull my lethargic body out of house and head to Auntie's house. Staying in Kajang is such a hustle, it's so far away to everywhere. It's exhausting even to think of going to KL city. I would not mind that much if the traffic is smooth. It's just my luck that the Police for whatever reason had a road block on the highway. I didn't realize if there is any kind of street demonstration or whatsoever gonna take place on that day itself or on the next few days time. And can you believed it? For that short 2km journey, it consumed my precious 1 hour of my life. That 2km stretch takes only maybe 1 min on a normal day. Other drivers temper flair. Drove like crazy people. Didn't give way to others as everyone wanted to get out of that situation as fast as possible. When I passed the policemen, I felt like bashing them inside out but of course I didn't... still managed to maintain as a civilized human being. hahaha...

So the irritation level has just been 'upgraded'.

Luckily had good time in Auntie's place. She prepared delicious lunch for me. I met old friends too catch up on things. And I borrowed few good VCD / DVD home. Not too bad.

Was supposed to play tennis later in the afternoon. So headed to Setia Wangsa area. When I reached there, i saw dark clouds started to 'meet up' in this area like they're gonna have afternoon tea gathering. Oh Boy!!! I thought, not again please. Same story in my life, whenever I wanted to exercise, usually the sky will open up. Even my colleagues noticed it. Fed up. True enough it was raining like cats and dogs. So the tennis plan is gone with the rain and the irritation level escalated.

To relax, I opted to go for my regular blind massage. Aaarrrgggghhhhh.... traffic jam !!!!!! My patient has been tested to the maximum at that moment. I had to change my course, U-turn (luckily there is a U-turn) and took another road. I was praying, please let me have a clear route even though the distance is longer.

I guessed the saying 'one door is close a window opens' has some truth in it. I had a longer but clear route. I managed the anger before I reached Brickfield the massage center. felt much better. After 1-1/2 hours of massage, where the masseur helped to correct my light slip disk, legs, hands, shoulders and neck problems (too many injuries), physically I was loosen up.

On my way home, I was thinking to myself that the policemen were just doing their job. They got instruction from their bosses. Their bosses got instruction from the government, perhaps. But whoever gave the instruction for this stupid road block, one thing they didn't see is that, so many man-hours are lost during the operations. If there was 1000 cars trapped in any one hour duration, average 2 persons in one car, that's 2000 hours lost. Imagine what can you do with 2000 hours? The benefits the society and country would enjoy? There will not be any demonstration if the government runs the country fairly, efficiently and effectively. The government should re-group and analyze the situation instead of implementing all these nonsense tactics to try to seize control of the situation. We all know that it doesn't work that way.

Talk about wake up on the wrong side of the bed, what can I say. All those who got stuck in the traffic jam, the on duty policemen, the family members who're waiting for the love one to come home, those people who desperately needed to go toilet but stuck in that stupid traffic jam (imagine that), those whose cars broke down in the monsoon rain, those who couldn't play their sports because of the rain; those whose houses were wet because forgotten to close the windows; clothes got wet... Imagine the sick needed to get to hospital but the traffic jam... hmmm... not pleasant at all...

Wrong side of the bed? We're not alone here. But I think we can bitch and complain about it, but do not dwell in it for too long. Instead need to dig deep to get out of the situation. Just like a tennis match, we don't play the best tennis all the time, but we can stay calm and maintain the composure to turn the match around. Think of those who're in the worse situation than us.

Here is a short video which i like and a good illustration on 'wrong side of bed'... But whatever goes wrong in our lives, remember shit happens... life goes on and we can only move on and improve from the experiences gained and be better in the future...

Human Relationship

Human relationship is unique and complicated. Nobody really understand the chemistry behind it.

It is funny to learn that in my company there are these two guys who can't stand each other's presence but have to work together. The sound of it indicates the wrong mixture of chemicals. These two guys hence split their working hour like this - day shift and night shift. Often enough they don't have an overlapping period for handover because they couldn't stand each other. Also they don't bother to write a handover note. Simply because they don't even want to have any kind of interaction with one another??? That I wouldn't know.

Human relationship is complicated. Sometimes we like a person at the first sight. Sometimes we grow to like a person. It takes time to see a person's good side. Sometimes we dislike a person at the first sight. Some people have hated one another no matter how long they've known each other but circumstances 'bind' them together. There are many more examples but I'm not going into that detail :-p

If people dislike each other, it's because the auras do not match with each other, according to one GURU i met long time ago. Many more 'explanation' to why two persons dislike each other.

To me, life is short. I believe it's a complete waste of time to engage in dislike, hatred and all sort of negative thoughts / energy. We should channel our energy to do things that is going to be beneficial to our lives. Do something good for our family, parents, siblings, friends and even people that we do not know if possible. Exercise to make us fresh and energetic. Have good diet so that we do not 'balloon' up and torture our body. Have a good financial planning to have at least a emergency fund when we need it. Read more books to be more intelligent and intellectual. Travel to broaden our horizon. Invest wisely. Decorate house make it at least a livable place (HAHAHAHA!!!!!!). Donation to help the needy. Just enjoy every moment of our lives. It's too short.

Instead of playing games and politics with one another while we need to face each other everyday to make a living? Well well well, better sort that out before everyone goes crazy... hahaha... In a blink of an eyes, we would become old. When the time comes, perhaps we would be laughing at ourselves why waste time and energy on all these negative 'problems'.
Perhaps we would think ai ya, I should have done this, I should have done that...

I think, we live the moment, make full use of it, and most importantly, enjoy it :-) Yesterday is history, tomorrow is unknown. Now is the best time !!!

Malaysia Politics

It's funny to find that I'm actually sitting in front of the laptop writing something about politics. It's unreal. All my life I've never been interested in anything about politics. Perhaps to me politics is just a kid monopoly game that real adults play which involved everyone in the world, whether we like it or not.

This morning was reading The Sun. When I turned to second page, it was all about the Battle For Permatang Pauh between Datuk Arif Shah Omar Shah and Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim. Funny thing is that the introduction of these two 'giants' is first, Name, second, Age, then third, Marital Status... I couldn't stop wondering why Marital Status is so important that it can make it to the top three here. I wouldn't know what would be the appropriate data to be shown here (maybe the current position they're holding???), but Marital Status? come on... Perhaps they could think of 'Gender' in the future... hahahaha...

Another question arise. What happens is that Anwar Ibrahim's wife wants to give up her seat and gives it to her husband. Why an election is needed?

I'm saying this because I don't really understand the rules here. You see, after the election in March, some parties which have won could switch the parties they represented to the opposition parties. They were voted winners by the people. If they want to switch parties, there should be another election to be held so that people's opinion can be valued. They need to seek approval from the people if they can switch or not, agree? If they can switch parties just like that, then what's the election for? As one of the people, I feel I have been cheated by the so-called Democracy in Malaysia and roped off the right I have as a citizen.

One of my colleagues asked an excellent question. She asked, if Prime Minister's position can be passed on just like that i.e. without the needs of voting, then what's the big deal about this Permatang Pauh parliamentary seat? Agree? Argument anyone?

I have been following the current news of Malaysia and the world more than ever this year. The more I read, the more I learned. Politics, it is an interesting game. But the politicians have to hold their hearts and ask themselves honestly, what do they want out of this game. Is it money? Fame? Power? or they really want to do something good to their people? After all, without people they're nobody. Till now, my conclusion about Malaysian politicians are generally a bunch of no brainer and selfish adults play a fool among themselves and along the way they want to get as much as possible to fulfill their greediness. To them, who are 'people'? That's what I think. Well, can't deny that there are some good bunch out there though. But for the not so good bunch, one day nature will give them back what they deserve ;-)

Hungry Ghost Festival

1 - 15 July of Lunar Calender is the Hungry Ghost Festival. What's Hungry Ghost Festival? It is believed that during this period of time the gate of Hell opens and all the 'living form' in the other world comes to our living world for God knows what activities.

Whether it's true or not, I don't know. There is basically no prove of this happening. I don't know if there really is Hell or even Heaven. I don't know if there's other living forms other than human in this world or in this universe.

However, there is one thing I believe in. The Hungry Ghost Festival has been around since long time ago. The actual official date of festival is unknown to many, unless to me. After such a long time the festival is still been 'celebrated' it is still around shows the importance of this festival in Chinese culture. During this period of time, you will not see many Chinese go out at night as it is believed that other living forms are more active during night time as there is no sunlight which represents the Yang (hot) energy. If there is no truth in this festival, I would think that this festival would be long ago been phased out.

Even though there is no scientific proof of this event, facts do speak for itself. Case history tells us that during this Hungry Ghost Festival, accident rate is usually higher than other period of time of the year. For example, there is a fatal accident on one of the offshore rigs in Malaysia and another passed away due to heart attack. There is one 'death ceremony' in my neighborhood. Over the years I have heard lots of interesting stories that happened during this period of time, but usually I forget after listening to them, so sorry guys, no horror stories here ;-)... will write about it when I come across in the future or when I remember them.

In a nutshell, I would say believe in something which has been around since ancient time. Don't take things for granted. Just believe, take necessary precaution steps but don't get superstitious. Superstitious will make our life miserable (maybe will talk about it next time :-)). Something that we can't see doesn't mean it doesn't exist, so JUST BELIEVE :-p......

Say Bye !!!!!!

I was brought up in a family with a very strong family tie. Dad's very strict and mum's a very loving mum. I have 5 siblings.

My dad comes from a big family, he has 10 siblings in total and his oldest nephew, who is my oldest cousin, is only one year younger than him. I have nephews and nieces who are older than me. Oh, my grandfather was very rich and was somebody in his area in that 'era'.

From TV drama especially the Bollywood movies we know that big family like that is a 'country' by itself. Human beings have the good and evil characters regardless of even if we have the same 'bloodstream' flowing in us. As more human beings are brought together, naturally there will be conflicts. Hence, politic occurs, people are divided into groups / clans, back-stabbing bla bla bla, you name it.

The growing pain my dad had gave rise to the unique way he brought his children up. He manages to create a very strong bond among my siblings. We cherish each other and appreciate everything we have done for each other.

As we moved a lot when I was young due to dad's constant change of job, eldest two sisters and the younger three of us were separated for many years. That made our bond even stronger. We usually say goodbye and see each other off, wave goodbye, for example, in the airport, till we couldn't see the last bit of sibling's shadow. To many people maybe this is an useless act but to us, it's important. To me my family's love is one of the ultimate factor that carries me this far.

Character of cherishing people around me not only to my family members but to good friends has been implanted in me since I was young. I normally would say goodbye when I leave a place, when I have to go offline when chatting with friends etc.

But somehow, there are friends who would just go off without a proper 'departing speech', which can be a very simple words like 'i got to go', for example. It was an extremely big challenge for me to face the world that's so different to the world i grew up in. I'm still wondering how on earth can people do that i.e. just walk off like that. To me, we are fated to know each other so cherish the moment, as we will never know what will happen next. That maybe the last time we would see or talk to each other, unless people just don't care. I don't want to have or try to minimize the regrets I have in my life.

Slowly, I'm getting more used to it now. We can't expect others to be like us. In some way, I'm the odd one to other people as well. In this world, as we live, we learn, we gain experience and we grow to be better person. All the problems that we face, they are only mere challenges. Challenges can be solved and when we face the same challenge again in the future, it'll not be problem to us anymore, since we have the experience to solve it.

To me right now, the once disturbing situation is just a way of life. I have my paradigm shift to make myself understand the world better and also to make my life happier. If others don't bother, why would I, right? But I don't change myself to be like that. I still live the way i think is right, and saying 'I got to go, have a good day, ciao, you take care, see you next time' etc doesn't hurt at all and it does carry a very subtle 'comfort' which people take it for granted.

Life goes on...... whether we like it or not :-))

Gain and Loss

It's been a while since the last blog. Life's been busy busy busy. Had to write a very technical report for a very demanding customer. Was very tired and exhausted in the process as the expectation from both customer and own manager is high. To make things worse, I haven't been writing any technical report for ages and was not as focused as when I was in college. Sometimes I stayed up till late night or early morning just to try to get some inspiration to write. On Sunday, two days ago, I finally I completed it at 2.30am (so technically it should be Monday), sent it to manager for review, did some editing, got few more feedback from colleagues. On Monday evening around 5.10pm, I pressed the 'send' button and the report was on the customer's Inbox within 5 seconds. Initially I was a little nervous because I didnt' know what to expect. Every time mobile rang, I had this paranoia feeling that it could be calls from this customer. It didn't happen, lucky me.

This morning when I opened my Inbox, I saw an email from this customer. With a heavy heart, I opened it. To my surprised, he actually liked the report, written like this: "Many thanks for the report it seems a reasonable conclusion ...... ". I smiled from the bottom of my heart as if a heavy burden has just been lifted off me.

In the process of writing this report, I have learned a thing or two about life and what's going on around me. Well, this is a little 'enlightenment' I experienced I guess.

No matter how touch the situation, as long as we stay focus and put our soul and mind into the matter, nothing is impossible.

It seems like it is the law of nature that one has to endure great pain and suffering before achieving success. We look at the success stories of successful people in the world. All of them have got the similar story, which is they had gone to hell before reaching heaven. I remember a ‘ming yuan’ from a successful lady. Once she asked, ‘when is the darkest moment of a day?’ Some said midnight, some said early in the morning etc. Well, she said, the darkest moment of a day is the moment just before dawn. Sunrise follows the darkest moment. Similarly, as long as we do not give up in whatever we do, hang in there, as long as we endure the most painful moment, success will follow. A lot of people fail in life because they ‘U turn’ when they face lots of obstacles or some would prefer to call challenges. If we make ‘U’ turn, we will be back to square one and start all over again. Time and energy is wasted. Plus, we do not have that much time to start all over again. So, hang in there buddy, don’t give up in pursuing our goals in life.

I love to watch people when they fully concentrate and focus in doing their tasks. I myself always have problem concentrating or stay focus on my work. I like to do this, do that, here and there (everywhere). For me it’s really challenging to only handle one thing at a time. I would get bored very easily. That’s what happened to me when I was writing my technical report. I had a big picture in my mind, but I would do a little bit of this part, little bit of that part, and then try to ‘join’ them together like jigsaw puzzle. Along the way I would chat with friends online, had beers, watched useless series on youtube.com, and just wasted time sitting there dreaming. That’s one of the reasons it took me so long to write the report since I wasn’t focused anyway. Hahaha. But towards the end, when I had to join all the pieces together, I had no choice but just sit down and did it once and for all. At that time, when I really focused on the task, I felt the joy of seeing things clearly and was enjoying all the work I have put in to get that far. I guess it’s all about timing. When the right time has come, all will fall into places, just like falling leaves. I enjoy being so focused but I bet same thing would happen to me again next time, as staying focus in doing my work is really not my kinda thing. Hahaha. I will have another episode of blogging :-P

Passionate about something is beautiful. On Monday 21 July 08, the day I submitted my report to the customer, I played tennis with Fauza in the evening. Was supposed to start playing at 6pm, but sky opened up, started drizzling. We waited till almost 7pm, was still drizzling, but since we were at the court, so decided might as well play some tennis hoping the drizzle would stop. Court was wet, Fauza actually brought with him a broom to ‘clean’ the accumulated waters on the tennis court. When he told me he was bringing broom I thought he was just joking. Seeing him being so passionate about something alarms me of having wasted too much time on useless things in life and have not improved and evolved as I grow. From now on, I will not waste too much time and energy in useless stuff and hopefully to find the desire and enthusiasm to learn something new everyday. We played tennis till 9.30pm that day. Score was 6-7 (8-6), 6-4, 7-6 (7-4) to Liew Khee Chong J. But hell, Fauza, you’ve improved tremendously. I see the passion in you, thank you very much.

So, I guess I have to improve more on my concentration over something as I have to be passionate and enthusiastic. I’m on the right track.

As I’m writing this, I’m a little bit lost. Got to read it again few more times to get it straight. Hahaha.

Sunday (20 July 08) night, I was supposed to start my final stage of writing my report. I told myself to start at 8pm but didn’t have the mood. Then I saw a good friend online. Chatted with her normal daily stuff, old times, her family, my life etc. Guessed that’s enough to get me relaxed and cleared my mind with negative thoughts. I'm glad there's somebody there for me to talk nonsense till I had the inspiration to write that stupid report hahaahaha. I’m sure she didn’t realize it. Sometimes we have expectations about friends – I want you to do this, do that for me bla bla bla but end up with disappointment. Now I realize that we shouldn’t expect anything from anyone, because everybody has to live his/her own life. No one actually really cares or no time to care or don’t bother to care (whatever the reason is, doesn’t really matter). But when we don’t have any expectation, things would happen the way we hope for.

During this period of time, I watched a very touching movie. In the movie, there is a dialog which I think make sense and worth a look at least: “Because you have so much love for one another, even though sometimes it seems to be too much that we end up hurting each other but I believe as time goes by we would all agree that there is no such thing as ‘too much love’. Even if we made mistakes along the way, it’s better than never having tried to love and be loved. Wouldn’t you agree? Life always gives us opportunities to start over after we learn from our mistakes.”

And I think I better stop here. I’ll continue my ‘enlightenment’ session Part II. I’m lost right now. Hahahaha… I end this session after one week writing :-P

how i started this blog

it's an interesting process of finding the right name for my blog...

I've got interest in blogging since errr, few years ago... however, I didn't try hard enough to start it, as I'm a little 'retard' in internet things then... and another reason of this delay is finding a satisfactory name for it... as years gone by, the interest of blogging kinda derailed too...

recently a friend, Leo, has started his own blog... by reading his blogs, i found my own interest again... a lot of times we don't talk to our friends (best friends, good friends, normal friends bla bla bla) what's in our mind due to busy schedule lah, don't meet too often lah and all other excuses... with blogging we keep ourselves updated with what's happening in our lives... I think blogs actually improves relationships with friends and even family members...

Another friend, Choong, also has been blogging for quite sometimes, but I never bothered to login to Multiply.com caused I always forget my ID and passwords to this site... normally she would be too busy to answer my message as she's very focused in her work but few weeks ago i managed to chat online with her... she told me that she bought a domain... hmm, quite interesting... and she asked me to read her blog in multiply.com, it's about her story in her office...

well, i thought maybe this is the best way to keep in touch with friends, at the same time we can write our thoughts down, at the end of the day it's like the dairy of our live... one day when we look back, we can laugh at the good and bad times...

so the task now is to choose the name of the blog... i'm a bit 'sien' (bored) with naming IDs after my own name, for example KCLiew, kcl, liew kc bla bla bla... even the look of it is kinda boring... hahaha... after all, i've been carrying and using these names for 33 years now... need a refresher... First Choong suggested to use my name, of course that didn't work... so she suggested to use terms used in Oil and Gas Industry, errrr, I left University almost 10 years now, and whatever I learned I obviously keep them in the deepest part of my brain, can't retrieve anymore, hahaha... she suggested few, couldnt' remember what she suggested now, but I came up with Cretateous, Jurrasic etc... didn't really like them as well...

after few weeks she again asked me if I've got a name for my blog... obviously not yet... this time she came up with the name alluvial... geology term... i thought maybe I would
attract bunch of geologists / archaeologists... and then all of the sudden she was talking about 'Chixiclub' (i dont know if i spell it correctly). Apparently this is the meteor site in Mexico and her beloved professor from Imperial College, Mike Warner was doing some project on this and named it 'Project Muse'... So from then on she suggested www.muse.blogspot.com, i-muse, muse-i... the first two were taken already, and the latter one was still available... so she asked me to book it straight away... a frequent Internet user, she knows that it's a nice name and would be taken up fairly quickly... well, i kinda like the name, and she pushed me hard to book it, so hahaha, here it is my blog's URL... www.muse-i.blogspot.com :-)

from this blog i can see clearly that i have problem expressing my thoughts into words... especially when i didn't have inspiration, guess i'm not alone in this problem ;-)... well, i always have this problem - couldn't express myself very well hahaha... this blog will record and be the proof of my improvement in overcoming this matter... one day when i look back and read this blog, i'm sure i'll laugh at myself hahahahahahaha :-))

Finally

It's been a busy day... to start the day, i made a 'grand entrance' to morning meeting for the second day in a row - customers were looking for me when I opened the door... when i entered, all eyes were on me... wah, felt like a 'superstar' :-p......... meeting til 10 am, had breakfast with customers, came back office with tonnes of work to follow up bla bla bla, same old same old story...

but today m excited... m taking time off from busy schedule as I want to write something on my very first blog... hehehehe...

I have got so much in my mind which I'll put them on this blog but will do it later when I'm more free and have time to let my mind flies and explores to new boundaries...

so for now, am happy with these few sentences, at least I've put a step forward :-)